Chris’ MKMMA Journey Week 10

Life Is Good – Be Happy

Everything is alright

I am very music effected, if I am in a bad or depressed mood the right music can lift me up and chase the blues away, many people are like this, I know but somehow I it still surprises me that it works. So listening to my recording with the music playing in the background has had a very powerful effect on me, it isn’t something that I am now just believing in, but it is really a part of me. It has become me in a sense, I have become my recording. I am so excited by this I get almost speechless, (the key word there is almost) it is another life changer from the MKMMA-MKE that I have experienced. Almost everyday I wonder how I made it this far in life being so out of touch with myself, it is mystifying.

Don’t Just Do The MKMMA-MKE, Live It

Some Noticeable Changes I Am Seeing & Others Have Seen In Me

I experienced a huge change in me, on Wednesday mornings I have a group therapy session, to help me deal with a major depression disorder. This past Wednesday, during the group a guy charges into the room, shouting at a younger female group member, it was her ex boyfriend, who apparently was not entirely happy with the current status of their relationship. I was really concerned that he might hit her, the words coming out of his mouth and the venomous tone of them justified my opinion. I jumped up and positioned myself between the girl and the guy, the previous version of Christopher O’Hare would have tackled the person and I would have used violence to prevent his violence. However, ten weeks into the MKMMA-MKE, I am not that person anymore. The current version of myself, didn’t let the guy pass me, but instead of attacking him; I started speaking softly but firmly, telling him this was a bad idea and he didn’t want to get himself into serious trouble. I kept it up speaking very calmly in his ear and guiding him back out the door. He offered no resistance, and calmly left the room where security took over. I was very proud of myself, not so much for protecting the girl, (that I would just do) but that I didn’t use violence, which was my initial instinct. My Subby’s habitual choice. I rose above habit and changed, my actions, which changed the outcome. I have absolutely no doubt whatsoever, that this happened because of the MKMMA-MKE. I am changed, forever, I have grown as a person which is not only good for me but anyone I come in contact with.

Don’t Just Do The MKMMA-MKE, Live It

Isn’t Life Strange And Wonderful

Life can be strange and wonderful, suffering with Major Depression is not good, going to a group therapy session can be annoying, but without the above two facts I would not have been in a position to help that girl nor to witness the changes in me. I also learned that I can use my head instead of my fists, (this is a great epiphany for a guy from the South Bronx who grew up having to fight). While the MKMMA-MKE isn’t brain surgery it does take effort, the kind of effort in my younger days would have only been exercised on a ball field or court. I am a very competitive person, I am learning that I really do not need to be so competitive to prove my value as a person.

Don’t Just Do The MKMMA-MKE, Live It

Life Is Good Be Happy

Namaste